i always manage to find myself in the worst possible situation that no other ordinary person faces in their life. i'm single again...forutnately i managed to escape my bad dating cycle before it eventually unhinges it's jaws and swallows me whole. the reason? easy, because he reminded me so much of my ex it's not even funny. he's controlling, he's so full of himself, he treats me like another person he can walk all over and he's extremely jealous. i can see myself a few months down the road being in the same position i was last time with my ex and i really really do not want to repeat that cycle.
i look back and sometimes i wonder whether i'm supposed to find someone that i know is bad for myself. anyways enough of brooding and tears and explanations, i've had enough of it today. not to mention there's a few doppelgangers running around trying to copy the way i write, the way i dress, the way i talk and whatever. i seriously dont understand why, it's not like i'm someone special or anything, i'm not a celebrity and i'm not someone who can attract alot of people. so why would someone want to copy and paste my identity onto theirs? and i do not find it flattering, i find it insulting. call me selfish but i didnt spend 22 years of my life trying to find myself and my whole identity for someone else to copy and potray as their own. that's just plain sloppy and lazy. so kids, learn a valuable lesson, dont try to be someone u're not, just be urself and do stuff which builds character. and for u doppelgangers reading this, i suppose there's nothing left for me to say except u cannot be me and copying me wont let u become me, so try leading ur own life instead. for now i'm gonna drive down to 65 and hopefully just mope in the corner or something.
