Trying to evaluate myself in these past few weeks has made me realize that I'm surrounded by bad karma, probably in my last life? Or maybe the things that I've said that have actually hurt people. Right now, the anger has subsided for my ex. The night I cried myself to sleep was the last night I swore to the higher beings above me that I will never shed another tear for him.
Despite me slapping him twice, it did hurt me more. Like jabbing a hot knife into my heart, I drowned my sorrow in a bottle of cheap wine and Stephanie Sun's songs. I needed a form of release, and knowing that these are the tools to bring forth hot lava tears to roll down my face I went through it only to wake up the next day and face my entire University with puffy red eyes and no boyfriend to call, hug, kiss or say I love you anymore.
To you who is reading this, I am truly sorry for using my hand across your face. I guess our relationship can't ever be salvaged. I wish you the best of luck and hope both of us move on and find whatever we want in life.
Trying to keep myself busy, I've picked up gymming again as well as revisiting old friends whom I haven't seen in a while. I've been trying to cleanse my aura as well and I believe this is bad karma that enveloped me so by doing good deeds, I do hope to rid of this evil presence. So I signed up for 2 day voluntary work at Freedom Film Fest 2007 held at Central Market this weekend, to help organize the event. It was supposed to be a 3 day job but I also volunteered to work in a home for disabled children on Sunday so I wouldn't be able to make it on the last day.
Do wish me luck on getting rid of bad karma. Shoo~!
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