The Moment

This moment
I will reminisce
The forgotten scenery
It all adds up to become me

This moment
Time has become my luggage
Going past sadness and happiness
You're side by side with me
Because of you I can see myself
In the unpredictable future

Next moment
Where will I fly?
My wings are slowly tiring
But because of you
I will be strong

This is just a long journey
This isn't an eternal stop
Saying goodbye is a reminder of our magnificent memories

You
Have to take care of yourself
And never forget those beautiful scars

Don't worry
Just leave me
I will remember this moment
There will still be amazing moments
After the rain
There will be a fantastic rainbow
We will find our freedom at the end

(Lyrics Translated From The Moment, By Stephanie Sun)

Breathe In Now

"A house is not a home when there's no one there to hold you tight and no one there you can kiss Goodnight..." (Luther Vandross)


Say Hi to the pregnant cat at Chap's.

Listening to very sad oldies has rendered me emo. I absolutely love retro music as I grew up listening to The Platters, The Carpenters (whom I absolutely love), Cyndi Lauper, Jefferson Starship, Tears for Fears to name drop a few. I'm glad that the music from the 70s and 80s
are making a comeback but I have yet to listen to a good re-make of the retro hits, apart from Madonna but that's a whole different ballgame right there.

Today, M&I stumbled across this fantastic bar which is relatively new and they were pumping out hits from the 80s and they serve Midori Illusions. Quite a surprise to see it tucked away in the corner of this new rising area in TTDI. Fantastic music, good drinks, not many pushers
and shove-ees, what more can a guy ask for? A few fans outside could possibly bring a wider smile across my face as I was melting away in the stuffiness and the heat of the night.

I would say I'm an old soul. I guess that's why I get along with people older than I and the younger crowd like my University mates are intimidated by me, or maybe it's because I'm 23 and I'm surrounded by boys and girls who call each other "dudes" and "chica". Sense the note of sarcasm and derision in my open and closed inverted comas.

I used to work for an events company which had posted me to supervise events during weekends at Zouk (Shook as the Chinese pronounce it) and I would get to see these kids who hang around outside smoking and desperately trying to get in by calling their contacts. Giving them the eye, I would usually walk off shaking my head and smiling to myself. I was one of them before. Used to go out clubbing at the tender age of 15, sneak into bars and pubs and get drunk but never making a mess out of myself. Those were the days. I hardly club anymore. Only on special occasions or if I'm forced to, which is highly unlikely since everyone around me knows how anti-social I am in clubs without several shots of whiskey running through my veins.

So now I sit in pubs, sip my half manly/girly drink and enjoy the music from my past. Seriously, what more can a guy of my stature ask for?

Ante Up

Forgiveness
Is all about saying sorry
To forgive is divine
So let's just have a glass of wine
And have make-up sex
Til the end of time...time...time...time...timeeeeee

Lyrics by Anna Faris (From the movie Just Friends)

things are starting to pick up in life. although i havent 100% fully recovered from the emotional distress i went through, i just know it's getting better. with good friends around me and knowing that people do care, it just lifts my spirits up and gives me confidence to do much more.

so my market value hasnt dropped yet suprisingly enough. it has just shifted from one end to the other. how funny life turns out to be. i was at this karaoke bar and funnily enough it turned out to be really packed so the people who worked there were really nice, they shifted the tables and we ended up sitting on this really high table top thing with everyone staring at me and my friend danial. being uncomfortable with so many roaming eyes just focusing on our table coz it's alot higher than the normal ones, i began to sink into this deep side of myself and i became self conscious of what i did. suprisingly enough someone by the name of Adrian gave me his number. i dont know who it was coz he passed it to one of the people who worked there to pass it to me and this guy didnt tell me who it was. so Adrian, if u're reading this, i lost the paper with ur number on it and thanx so much for passing it to me. it made me feel better about myself

so right, i met new friends and i had a great time singing in front of people and have them yell out MORE! it's fun to listen to people to sing as well. geez, i never knew that many gay people can sing...and pretty well too! anyways it was fun, i met a nice chap thru a friend on friday night. had drinks with him yesterday and he turned out to be...somewhat different from the people i usually meet. sadly enough, i cannot afford to invest my feelings in him because he's leaving to the US/Aus soon. but whatever i tell myself i just cant stop thinking about him. i have forgotten how he looks like...only a feeling.

i cant do anything. my hands are tied. i know if i loosen the knots and let myself go, i will end up getting hurt again with him leaving me. so i might as well just crawl underneath my covers and hope that i dont develop intense feelings...

Turn Me On

Like a flower waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb in a dark room
Like the desert waiting for the rain
Like a school kid waiting for the spring
I'm just sitting here waiting for you to come on home and turn me on

My poor heart
It's been so dark
Since you been gone
After all you're the one who turns me off
But you're the only one who can turn me back on

My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes
I'm just sitting here waiting for you to come on home and turn me on

Turn me on

Maple (Translation of Jay Chou's Feng)

The dark clouds left a piece of shadow in our heart
I listen to my long dreary mind
Clear and transparent, it’s just like the beautiful scenery
That I can only see clearly in my memories

Can the heart-broken you continue to love me?
I hold on tightly to your hands that has no temperature
The past sweetness has been locked up by the time
Only the inseparable sadness remains

The elegant red rain next to the mountainside
Withering away along with the northern wind
I gently shaking the wind bells
I want to waken the love that has been forgotten
The snowflakes have bespread the grounds
I’m deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window has already been iced

The slowly fallen maple leaves are like yearnings
I light up the candle lights to warm up the ends of year autumn
The polar lights plunder the sky
The north wind sweep by, I thought of your face
I’ve burnt my love to fallen leaves
But I can not exchange back the face that I’m familiar with

The slowly fallen maple leaves are like yearnings
Why retrieval has to be hurriedly done before the winter comes?
Love you, and I travel through time
Two strings of tears from the end of autumn
It has let the love infiltrate the grounds
I only want you to stay besides me

The elegant red rain next to the mountainside
Withering away along with the northern wind
I gently shaking the wind bells
I want to waken the love that has been forgotten
The snowflakes have bespread the grounds
I’m deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window has already been iced

Goodbye To You - Michelle Branch

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said...

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes
And you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

It hurts to want everything
And nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto

And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star...