Friday, November 11th 2005, 5.45PM

No. of Cigarettes: 15
No. of Movies Watched: 4
Anger Level: Minimum
Stress Level: Minimum
Current Mood: Mellow

i had just finished watching The Exorcism of Emily Rose when i heard my own voice behind me, and trust me that freaked the hell out of me and this was at 3 something in the morning. i was waiting for a friend of mine to touchdown from sydney and he was supposed to call me, so while waiting for him i decided to watch the 40 year old virgin, doom and the E.o.E.R i didnt go thru much of the 40 year old virgin so i held that out for later and watched EoER instead. so right, i finished the movie and i swore i heard my name being called out by my own voice. that really freaked me out and i didnt sleep till the morning rays shined into my room.

anyways scary things aside, my friend's flight was delayed for an hour and i didnt know about it so i got a call at around 5AM in the morning which scared the bejeezes out of me. so i spoke to him and he came over to my place and then slept for a while, this was around 6 something in the morning. at least there was someone beside me to protect me from any ghosts or ghoulies, or if he cant then let them take him first. huahahah

right today was a slow and easy day, i pretty much lazed about the whole day talking on the phone and sending my friend to get stuff for me when i found out, i pretty much like hanging out at home so instead of going out tonite for that Madonna thing, i'm deciding to stay at home and rot in my PeeJays. no dragging me out. heehee

so okay, jonathan's a nice guy. i dont mind going out on dates with him but i dont think i'm ready for a full blown relationship yet. actually i dont think i'll ever be ready for relationships ever again. so is it wrong for me to just date him and not tell him that? yes it is so i decided to tell him and the next 30 minutes i was explaining to him why i didnt want one, then the next 30 minutes he was trying to convince me otherwise. i dont think i can be persuaded into doing stuff that i dont want (NOT ANYMORE OKAY?!?!) so yeah we decided to just take things slowly and date. so what's the definition of dating? starting to see people non-exclusively. that's what the definition is in my books. so i'm allowed to see other people as well rite? RIGHT?