Twenty3

They only want you when you're 17. When you're 23, you're no fun.

To think back and reminisce about things that have come to pass, I realized I started clubbing and drinking alcohol at the tender age of 15. Going down to the bars in Bangsar Baru, getting drunk on cheap beers and making an utter fool of myself; this is what we do when we were teenagers. That was when we had not a care in the world. Entering the early stages of my 20s, I realized how much I miss being a teenager; carefree and living life the way I choose to. Now I have to think of the future and plan my life out.

I'm hitting a crossroad in my life. I'm graduating soon and since my father has retired from the corporate world, I will have to find a job the minute I finish my exams. I suppose this is life. Reality has unfolded itself upon my eyes and it's not a pretty sight. Naivety is such a bliss.

To make matters even worse, I realized what a boring person I am. I don't like to club anymore, getting drunk now is an expensive luxury, something which I can not afford everyday and being sober in a club is not worth my time. So I sit at home, waiting and wondering what I can do to pass time. Go out with friends for a drink? Nah, most of them stay so far away and the ones that I called already have plans. So what to do? I know! Go on Youtube and search for the dumbest things that people post up. Sure.

So I sit there, watching clips on Youtube for a couple of hours until my eyes dry out. Am I really that pathetic now? I used to go out almost every single day, sometimes even twice or three times (going home just to shower). I used to be spontaneous, heading up to Genting just to have coffee and then come back down for work at the local watering hole. I used to be able to club for hours, head to LQ at around 10PM, drink until I'm high and dance like there's no tomorrow. What happened to me?

I'll tell you what happened. I got older. I'm officially OLD. I feel like my tired old bones can't take anymore.

I've been there. I've done that. It's now time to retire.