My Tears Are Like Poems

In the evening I've got to roam.
Can't sleep in a city of neon and chrome.

hmmm i was working out in the gym today when i recieved a call from Jo Wen, as i just met her earlier on today, i didnt expect her to call me so soon especially when she works during the night shift. she shocked me by saying that she's in the hospital and needed someone to pick her up. i immediately dropped my weights and showered and raced to the hospital where she was at. she was going through the x-ray and my mind was racing and wondering how bad it got. it wasnt that bad, she came out looking like herself except she was walking kinda funny. it was such a great relief to see that she turned out okay and i thank the people working up there that she's safe and sound. she had a bad whiplash but still was alright.

it kinda scared me for a moment, my heart just sunk when she said she was in the hospital, it didnt help that after we left we were talking about death and stuff. life is really short and u never know when someone u know could collapse and just pass silently away.

it just got me thinking on the way back home, driving slowly...my mind just started imagining different scenarios of what would happen if.

what would i do if someone dear to me passed away? i dont think i would be able to recover coz my friends and my family mean alot to me. but what would i do if something happened to my ex? i certainly do not wish for anything to happen to them or him but what if? i dont think i'll be able to cope with life knowing that i wasnt there at the last few moments.

so there i was...listening to Stephanie Sun's haunting voice with everything going through my head, and i just started tearing. it's like a wave of depression just came over me and i was drowning in it. i had to stop my car beside the road to just catch a deep breath of air. i dont think i have ever been like this before, this is something i've never ever experienced in my life. it was so overwhelming and i just sat there in my car with the hazard signal going off, just crying. after a while i pushed the hazard button for it to stop and just took a deep breath and drove home.

what if...