Marcus & Me

i dont know what to feel. yesterday night was absolutely blurry apart from the first part of the night which was arriving at LQ, dressed horribly. so i woke up today with marcus next to me. i felt...full, complete. i missed him so much and having him lying next to me just felt so wonderful. there's just so many things i wanted to say, but i dare not say it, i'm just really scared i might screw things up if i said something wrong. we later met up with jo wen and her friends at Redbox and...it just felt weird. i love him so much but it felt like we were strangers coz we broke up for so long. i want to forget about the past and look forward to the future. i dont care anymore...i used to be insecure and i still am, but i just dont want our pasts to get in the way anymore. i dont know what's going on with us, whether we are together again or what but i really wish that we really are together again. i just missed him so much these past few months...

Heren HMV

i remember sitting and reading Dan Brown's Angel & Demons for the whole day, sometime when i was in sg. hahah yes i'm still ranting on about it coz alot of things happened. what a cruisy little place it was! but me being conservative i didnt like attention, especially when i had my 'armour' on, and by armour i mean my book, my cigarettes, a glass of iced tea and my mobile on silent. so there i was, sitting and reading the best book i've ever read and got me hooked on to it for days when i saw the most gorgeous looking guy (well to me...i have weird taste). my jaws dropped and i swear a fly went in and went out and i didnt even notice.

wow...he was so pretty it made me want to cry. well i was trying hard not to look but it was distracting especially when he was sitting at my 11'o'clock so being me i stole glances here and there, and he caught me looking a few times and being utterly embarrassed at him realizing i was gawking at him with my mouth wide open, i drank my iced tea, nearly choked on it, stuffed all my belongings into my bag and ran to the bathroom with my cheeks burning red. i wouldnt go back until he left, so i went around window shopping for a minute and waited at the fountain area till he left the cafe.

gosh the most embarrassing moment of my life...well at least i got something out of it...heh heh heh!

True Singapore Gay Stories Part 2 - Killer Taxi Driver With Mobile

okay here goes part 2, the weekend was a blast. i got drunk, i partied, i met good people and nice friends, it was the best i had felt in years. so lets go to the end of my trip before i rant about the people i met there. the last night i spent in sg, which was technically two nights ago coz it's 1.13AM right now, anyways i hailed a cab to meet 'Drew at Legend so i got into a taxi and told him Tras St, and he said okay...and told me he's not very sure where it is but he knows vaguely where all the pubs are located so being fine with that i minded my own business and i realized i did something wrong. i sat in the front seat again, some shit is going to happen to me but feeling that the driver is pretty cool with his oldies music and tattooed arm, i felt at ease, he's probably str8 and married...GOOD! so halfway through my journey to legend, 'drew called me up and asked me where i was, i told him i was near and then we said okay and hung up. amused and admiring my ringtone which was a woman singing/shrieking pick up the phone several times he chuckled to himself and commented on how funky it was. i was pretty amused that he was amused and then he asked whether i had blue tooth and whether i could send it to him. so i said alright and thinking he could manage holding a phone and driving i switched it on and started sending the ringtone. that was when i realized he couldnt multi-task and his cab was unstable meaning moving to the left...and then the right and the left. i think we got honked at twice. fearing for my life and with trembling fingers i accidently pressed cancel. and he was disappointed and wanted it again. so being me, i sent it again. this time he missed a turning and he decided to go for the turning and the tires screeched for 3 seconds while we were turning right. i've never been in a race before, i've never been in a car that was drifting so i gasped and my heart dropped for that 3 seconds. he laughed it off and was laughing at my cowardliness and i felt bad but he was the worst driver in HISTORY! then he started to make jokes like how the woman in my ringtone sounded like she was being 'kena fucked' (i'm using the exact same line he said to me). using my common courtesy skills/social skills i laughed it off and thank the heavens that my head didnt fly out the window when he drifted his car. so we reached Legend and in that narrow lane he was going quite fast and there was a car infront and i swear i think he did it on purpose to see when i would start peeing in my pants or something, and i was close. damn taxi drivers.

Singapore Flings (or is it Slings?) Part 1 - Taxi Nightmare

i'm back! oh sg is so good. i love sg, it's like my second home. 6 days and 5 nights which i spent drinking till the cows came home and not only that i met alot of great people there as well. but before i continue lemme start by telling a few stories which i encountered which are scary.

it was a good night, i was high and pretty much drunk and i couldnt walk str8. i just saw edwin off in a cab and was smsing colin whilst walking (and trust me it wasnt in a str8 line) when i noticed a cab following me. so being the drunk lord that i am i finished my smsing and got into the cab and told him where to go, back to my apartment. so throughout the journey he kept on talking to me in mandarin which i didnt understand so i told him that and he translated to english what seemed to be mostly sex. i wasnt in a chatty mood and was going to pass out soon but i held on to my handphone for dear life so i just answered in not really interested dialogue like 'oh okay' or 'right' 'mm-hm'. then out of no where he put his hand on my thigh and went so r u gay? i was shocked and quickly smacked his hand away and said what's it to u? being more daring he again stuck his hand out but this time he grabbed my privates and mumbled out some stuff. i was shocked and stoned but i immediately smacked his hand away again and requested to go home otherwise i'm calling my friend 'drew. he said okay and then he this time brought me to a desolated area with trees and it was dark and he said i've got something to show u and then he unzipped his pants and showed me what seemed to be a small erect penis. being disgusted and terrified of being raped and killed i told him off and said either he sends me home or i get out and not pay him and get my friend to pick me up which was quite a daring thing to say coz i didnt know where the heck i was. i raised up my phone and was about to dial andrew's number when he grabbed my phone and punched in his number and called himself. all this while i was stoned, i didnt know what to do, some crazy guy just took my phone! so i snatched it back and quickly ended the call and i was about to get out when he said okay and zipped up and said he would send me home. i kept quiet the whole trip while he was busy ranting on about some crap about having sex with passengers. when i reached home, he said to me 'i'll see u later okay?' and i just grabbed my change and slammed the door and ran to my apartment. when i was up there, my heart was beating, my knees were weak and my mind was racing. and then my mobile rang. i looked at it and an unknown number came up. i picked it up and it was HIM, mister pervy i'll-molest-passengers taxi driver. he told me he was waiting for me downstairs, i quickly ended the call and was freaked out. my mobile rang endlessly so it was time i took action. i called colin and told him my situation and i was in hysterics, he immediately rushed over to accompany me, but by the time he got to my place, the calls had ended. nice colin, he stayed with me the whole night even tho he had work the next day. it was really sweet of him to do that. thank u so much! stupid taxi drivers, i made sure after that i sat in the backseat of the car.