A Blossom Fell

diana krall's music really gets to me. her voice is exceptional and really gets to me, sorta like singing into my soul.

btw, i am apologetic for the last diary entry i wrote, it was written out of anger and there was so much hate in it that it even shocked me when i re-read it a couple of minutes ago. i do not regret writing it though, that's why it's still there. i dont believe in regret, what's done is done and i just have to stick to my actions and take responsibility for it. and i do mean every word i say, i dont want to be like other people who just say things just because, i am learning the trait of being straightforward and not apologising for it. i think i apologise too much and i'm trying to cut it down. it sorta makes me look like i feel sorry for even being alive.

so i'm feeling kinda peaceful rite now...very zen. maybe that's because i've pretty much stayed at home and tried doing things to cheer myself up. this is something i'm trying out as well, whenever i feel angry i dont want to blow it out on other people so i cheer myself up by doing things i like, cause i know that i cannot rely on anyone to cheer me up. it's up to me to make things happen for myself.

so a blossom did fall for me, the blossom of anger and hate and resentment. i hope it doesnt grow again in the near future though...